Saturday, January 29, 2011

Michael Buble / Blake Shelton / Westlife - Home (Boyce Avenue acoustic c...




I used to see this video from those who already have plans for their vacation.... everyone misses HOME... coz there's no other place like HOME. 

Now its my turn... I'll soon be home with my precious rewards.  They don't want me to count the days but i can not help it.  Though it is giving me hard time, what they call PRE-DEPARTURE SYNDROME? SO happy for it is really fast approaching.  The more I keep myself busy, the more the time flies so fast. Excited!

I don't want to get hold of my ticket though it  was purchased 3 months ago.  Done with my visa... shopping-rush? Nah! packed? Nah! Do I look like i am so excited? Nah!

I miss you my kids, see you sooooo soooonnnn!!!!! God's will be done! 


Another Fight!

Oh Lord My God
I am here again
Calling out your name
No one to trust
But only you
Because with you 
I become who I am now
But life never stops
I must go on 
Must face all these challenges
With enough effort
So much Faith
Coz I do believe
I am really NOTHING 
without YOU!


My fears make me cling more unto You.
You are so great 
You are my strength.
I can't stand a day  without YOU
Because you are My Lord and My God
I adore you
I praise you
I trust you
I love you 
and I thank you!
I really feel so BLESSED! 
Whatever happen
I believe
you have your reasons... 



Thursday, December 9, 2010

What a Journey!

July 8, 2010 4:45pm Saudia Airlines, Manila-Damman, Dammam-Riyadh, Riyadh-Jeddah, Jeddah-Hofuf (final destination)

katuwang flight diba?

"Kung ako yan nenerbyusin na ako." sabi ng isang SRO staff. Wala naman daw magawa dahil kailangan ang final destination ng flight ay sa lugar mo talaga.  Ngunit kung titingnan mo sa magandang anggulo. WOW! narating ko na mahahalagang lugar ng Saudi. Airport  lang pala.

Dammam - Maupo ka lang dyan sa plane, wait mo matapos ang lahat at aalis din yan. Tumanaw ka nalang sa bintana habang nagbababa at nagsasakay ng bagahe.

Dapat ayusin dahil hindi din tama. Imagine magstay ka sa Riyadh para kang preso. 12-hrs sa mistulang dungeon? Swerte mo pag binigyan ka ng food or may kalahi ka na cleaner para ibili ka ng needs mo. 

Pagflight mo na. Tawagin ka ng airport police at walang awa kang papalakarin ng mabilis patungo sa check-in counter na halos singhaba ng MegaMall and layo. Kahit halos hindi mo na maihakbang ang paa mo sa nginig dahil sa gutom at puyat. 

Pakikipagsapalaran na kailangan ng tibay ng loob. Dahil kung di ka sanay sa pagod, sa hirap, maaaring maging simula ng panghihina ng iyong katawan.

Maaaring isa itong matinding dahilan ng kamatayan ng isa nating kababayan. Sumalangit nawa ang kanyang kaluluwa. Tatlong araw palang nakakatuntong ang paa sa lugar na ito, kinuha na sya ni Lord. Nilalagnat na bago umalis ng Pinas, at danasin ang hirap na tulad ng dinanas? kaawa-awang magulang, 2 anak kinuha pa ng maaga ung isa. Eh swerte pa ako matatawag. Thank you Lord. 


Sa sobrang pagod na nararamdaman ng mga sandaling iyon, nagawa ko ipa-check-in ang hand-carry bag ko, kahit kabilinbilinan sa PDOS na huwag iwawalay sa katawan ang papeles at di na inisip na nandoon sa bag na iyon ang mahalangang papel. Pakiwari ko lang, kung hindi ko ginawa un, isang matinding parusa ang dadanasin ko sa pagsapit sa Jeddah Airport, at isa na akong nasirang "Ineng", Baket??? kasi nawalala sa Jeddah ang pasaporte ko. Nasan ang Immigration? Sus, turo ako kung saan saan, yun pala di nakakaintindi ng ingles. Akyat panaog, nakakita ng kalahi, di din pala alam. Nakakita ng airport pulis, Aysus, di din nila alam kung nasan. Ang maganda pa nito, magkwentuhan at magtawanan habang ako'y naghihintay. Hello! mga brothers, minuto nalang wait ko at aalis na eroplane. At di ako aalis nang di ko nakikita ang pasaporte ko. Ang magagaling palang Saudia Staff eh tinago, matapos ang pakikipag pilitan sa mga airport pulis na sa kanila ko daw kunin. 


kung bitbit ko hand-carry bag ko? Oh my! bagsak na ko sa kakaikot at kakamadali dahil final call na nag check-in palang ako, nag call na for boarding sa bus patungo sa eroplane. Saan ka pa? security check, may nakasingit pa sister na naka-wheelchair, ano gagawin ko? Iwan ko? Nakakatawa diba? 


Pero sa totoong buhay, so depressing and tiring. I almost wanted to give up. All I did is cry silently. But its a test  of patience and strength. However, I am thankful for a rough road towards my success. How I wish I will be blessed!




Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Homesick!

No matter how I tried to keep myself busy, I still feel emptiness! I know only a hugs and kisses from my kids can fill. I've been away for five months and not a day passed without them in my mind. 

At first, I cannot even stare at their photos, it almost makes me die of sadness. I wanna scream and be back home. Gradually, I get used to simply staring, but cannot even touch or hold.  This is what life has for me away from home.

I was wondering why on earth at every approach of the month,it  seems that time flies so fast to be with them.  but having this strange feeling I cannot fight with. No matter how loud my laugh is, I can still feel this emptiness inside.  I chose to work away from them, for some reasons we all agreed together. 

One good thing is, I was able to quit smoking. Can you imagine a 20-year-smoker abruptly quit on the first day I set foot in this strange land? To keep the promise to my kids and I am proud of myself to be able to fight this addiction.  Though, during lonely times, I still crave for it, and miss what it brought me.  The relaxation state I felt in every puff . Honestly, just today, I almost lose my control, I'm glad to keep myself busy and forgot the Baqala thing or else... OMG! I can no longer resist because of the loneliness and what I am into right now. NO! NO! NO! ahhhhhh!!!!!

I must stand this test... I must keep moving on... and hope to be home soon to hug and kiss you my bebehs!


I love you mga anak!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Napakasakit Kuya Eddie



"What an old song?" Pero maniwala ba kayo na na-appreciate ko lang ang message nito ng ako ay nalalapit ng makpagsapalaran sa bansa ng Arabo. May isang kaibigan ang nagsabing "pakinggan mo ang kantang NAPAKASAKIT KUYA EDDIE" isa itong halimbawa ng realidad ng bansang Saudi.  Parang isang malaking biro, ngunit kung ikaw ay mulat sa katotohanan sa mga taong nakipagsapalaran iyong mapapatunayan na ito ay isang ordinaryong pangyayari nalamang pala. 

Bakit nga ba? Sino ang dapat sisihin? Ang iniwan o ang lumayo?
May kanya kanyang karanasan. May kanya kanya silang dahilan. May kanya kanyang sakit na nararamdaman. Na minsan ay hindi natin maintindihan kung hindi natin ito naranasan. Kung iyong pakikinggan, may katwiran at may wala sa katwiran. Ngunit kailan ba nagiging tama ang alam naman nating sa simula't simula ay mali?

Ang daming kwento, hindi ko alam pano ko sisimulan. Nakakalungkot ngunit eto ang katotohanan.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Away From Home


I created this blog intended for my new venture in life, working away from home. I know how difficult and depressive life is because of what I am hearing from friends and relatives who've been here.  I thought this blog could be my outlet to release my everyday thoughts, feelings and be relieved of the loneliness life has for me. 

I've been here for almost five months now, but didn't do what I planned to. Thanks to my kids, relatives, friends online, and especially to the one who never gets tired of keeping me company, no matter how far, tried to make it so near, to survive  in this new life away from home.  Blogging was set aside but in fact, I kept open so as to make it available when I feel like blogging

May this be a good start for my wishes to share the 'REALITY OF LIFE" away from home. I came to know more about each and everyone's reasons, goals and dreams. More of the struggles they've been through, which were kept from their families so as not to worry and let them continue with their thinking how good life is - working away from home.